It’s been a few weeks since I’ve meditated during my lunch hour… but today I figured I’d give it a shot to see if I could find that elusive “fall asleep” point.
It’s been a tough point to find… but I think I FINALLY nailed it, but only once. So I’m sitting here with my eyes closed, feet flat on the floor and my arms folded in front of me and I’m doing a mostly “noticing”-type exercise, just watching the forms appear and wave around in front of my eyes, to which I now realize *IS* Robert Monroes Focus 12. A post from Frank mentions this perfectly.
“It used to happen to me all the time where I’d just be settling into the Focus 12 state; where it is natural to perceive all manner of outline shapes and shadows, or whirls of colour, and so forth”
Those forms started to come about after a period of relaxing… and obviously weren’t there to begin with.
Then for a second, I felt the shift and I was engulfed in the blackness… which if I had to describe it, had depth to it, and it was VERY black. I have lights on in my office right now and I can see a bit of the light bleed through my eye lids, but after I felt that shift, everything just went straight to black. The Blackness seems to be Focus 21, which means I’m shooting through a few other focus levels without even realizing it… that’s probably what the sensation of movement or that shift is. One day I’ll have to try to slow it down and see. For now, I’ll just stick with this practice.
Now, I didn’t notice it right away… but I did notice and felt the shift, which was my goal. Now I need to try and pin point the exact moment it starts. So I was in the blackness, then my physical eyes decided to kick in to get a look at it… and bam! I find myself back in my office.
Another quote from Frank:
“As you begin to perceive those impressions try and remain as mentally still and as neutral as possible. Simply be a passive observer and just let events unfold.”
I found that prior to the shift happening, I was remaining fully relaxed and was just “watching” the shapes rolling around in front of me. What is surprising to me right now is how easy it was to hit that Focus 12 state. And now that I think about it, I’ve had this experience before with the rolling and floating shapes, but I never made the connection to this before. So I now know what to look for when I get there.
Definitely progress. 🙂